I learned a lesson today. One that I hope I can remember tomorrow. And the many tomorrows after that. I am still trying to figure this 2-kid thing out. (And when I look back and am reading this when we hopefully have a lot more, I'm sure I'll be laughing and saying 2 kids was so easy.)
Anyways, I find myself having an internal struggle all day long. Do I let the dishes sit in the sink for yet another day? And that laundry that has been sitting for days. Do I let my kids fuss so I can finally finish it? What about the emails and bills and errands that need to be taken care of? Should I put my children on hold for a few minutes to work on them or wait until they are asleep. But then I want to spend time with Brandon or do something for me like blog or edit photos or read or craft. I know I can't do it all. But I really want to. I have always been a believer that you make time for what you want. And that if you really want to do something, you can make time for it. Is that really true? I'm feeling so stretched thin these days that I am beginning to wonder. If I didn't ever sleep or clean my house or play with my kids I could do it all. Whatever it is. I am learning that I do need to let things go. But it is hard.
I do know there is a time and a season for everything. I don't want to look back and regret anything I did or didn't do. And today, while Evelyn was sleeping (without me holding her!), I took Blake outside for a few minutes and we played in the leaves.
Blake was in heaven. He kept signing "more, more" for me to throw leaves at him or chase him. We were both SO happy and the smiles and giggles couldn't stop. I forgot about everything else I should or wanted to be doing. We both felt invigorated and energized for the rest of the evening. Why can't I always remember to leave things be? It feels so good.
This was the hardest thing for me to learn and still is but I remember hearing once 'you can do everything you want to do, just not all right now." I have to remind myself of that often and then focus on what is the most important right now
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful lesson! I played in the leaves with my boys the other day too! They were both laughing so hard and loved throwing leaves at me. What a great thing to just play sometimes. I think it's a fine line, because sometimes we need to teach our kids patience as well while we finish something, but they only stay little for a short time. Just yesterday my 80 year old grandma told me the young kids grow up so fast and to try your best to enjoy them now.
ReplyDeleteJust remember that you're in the hardest stage of 2 kids right now, with a tiny baby who needs LOTS of attention. As they get bigger, they'll love to play together, and then you can get things done without feeling like you're neglecting them to do so. It gets easier, I promise! For now, I think letting things go is better than the alternative because these little ones are only little for so long. I keep telling myself that my house will be perfectly clean, laundry all done, etc., when they are all off to school some day. Until then, we'll make due. :)
ReplyDeleteSo I'm going to go against the grain and comment on how much I love your pictures! Especially the first two, ok really ALL of them! And I still struggle with the balance of getting things done/just throwing everything out the window to focus on the kiddos. With a new baby and a toddler though it's pure craziness and you'll just have to be satisfied with survival for awhile! ;)
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