I learned a lesson today. One that I hope I can remember tomorrow. And the many tomorrows after that. I am still trying to figure this 2-kid thing out. (And when I look back and am reading this when we hopefully have a lot more, I'm sure I'll be laughing and saying 2 kids was so easy.)
Anyways, I find myself having an internal struggle all day long. Do I let the dishes sit in the sink for yet another day? And that laundry that has been sitting for days. Do I let my kids fuss so I can finally finish it? What about the emails and bills and errands that need to be taken care of? Should I put my children on hold for a few minutes to work on them or wait until they are asleep. But then I want to spend time with Brandon or do something for me like blog or edit photos or read or craft. I know I can't do it all. But I really want to. I have always been a believer that you make time for what you want. And that if you really want to do something, you can make time for it. Is that really true? I'm feeling so stretched thin these days that I am beginning to wonder. If I didn't ever sleep or clean my house or play with my kids I could do it all. Whatever it is. I am learning that I do need to let things go. But it is hard.
I do know there is a time and a season for everything. I don't want to look back and regret anything I did or didn't do. And today, while Evelyn was sleeping (without me holding her!), I took Blake outside for a few minutes and we played in the leaves.
Blake was in heaven. He kept signing "more, more" for me to throw leaves at him or chase him. We were both SO happy and the smiles and giggles couldn't stop. I forgot about everything else I should or wanted to be doing. We both felt invigorated and energized for the rest of the evening. Why can't I always remember to leave things be? It feels so good.